I took this photo the other night at Newport on the Levee
I recently read somewhere that those people who adapt to change more easily or readily, are the happiest. I”ve gone through a lot of change in my life. By the time I left home at the age of 18 to enter the military, I had been moved 18 times and have since moved an additional 24 times. I’ve been married three times, twice to the same man (rocky) and have finally made the long-awaited decision to divorce him again. The last time it wasn’t really me that made the decision for divorce (I don’t want to share too much publicly). I went through a year-long custody battle for my only son when he was six years old, 19 years ago, and was awarded full custody. Experienced single motherhood for four years. More recently, both of my parents have passed away. I’m currently unemployed, or rather could take some job, but wanting to work at something I love and have passion for. Other more stressful events have taken place in my life, or to be more exact, in the lives of those I love.
I’ve learned a lot through all of these experiences (no regrets) and feel fortunate that I have a positive disposition. I know they say being positive is a choice, but I believe some people are more prone to being either positive or negative, easy-going or worriers, by nature. I’m not by any means saying I am not hurting or feeling afraid, but as I acknowledge these feelings, at the same time I’m not obsessing about everything that can go wrong (such as running out of money and having to ask for help) or denying myself the freedom and right to enjoy life, even while going through these trials.
Simple things, like looking out of my home office window at the beautiful trees and sun shining bright…
Admiring the work I’ve accomplished lately…staining the deck, painting the deck furniture and potting flowers…
and, of course, taking photographs…
I was supposed to go to the Great Smokey Mountains National Park this weekend, but everything came to a head, and I decided to let my son and his girlfriend go. I told him to take a lot of photographs. He paid me for half of it (he’s a college student) and his girlfriend has never been to the area, so I’m so happy they’re able to enjoy it! I’m able to enjoy the great outdoors right here at home, whereas they live in an apartment.
I’m considering a lot of options for my future…such as moving somewhere. Perhaps Colorado or North Carolina. I’ve even entertained the thought of somewhere out of the country, such as Spain or Ecuador. I’m quite sure I don’t want to have many possessions at this point, so I’m going to sell most of my things (somewhat scary thought). I’ve been minimizing possessions for the last few years and like the uncluttered feeling. When I envision what I’d like my immediate future to look like, I see either no fixed address or perhaps renting a room in someone’s home. I rented a room to a female about five years ago when my husband and I were divorced last time. There are organizations to join where one can house sit, or couchsurf, which I’ve done recently. To enable this nomadic life style, for employment, I have a variety of options, such as Tour Directing, TEFL, and monetizing my blog. I’m not going to overwhelm myself by forcing decisions for every thing right now.
It’s funny, as I am writing this, I’m listening to “Spotify” and a song by Gavin DeGraw –“Change is Gonna Come” is playing!
To finish up for now…I’m going to try to let the Universe (i.e. “God”) lead the show, instead of me, and see where it takes me! Send me good thoughts and/or prayers please. No…actually let’s also pray for the people who are truly suffering…in extreme pain, poverty, and/or anguish! I have so much to be thankful for…thank you!!
- Schwarzenegger ‘not rushing divorce’ (belfasttelegraph.co.uk)
- Successful single black motherhood: The new normal? (thegrio.com)
- The Rise and Fall and Rise of Couchsurfing (migrantcyborg.wordpress.com)
- Life’s a Beach: Sua Esmeraldas (theheartfulgivingproject.com)
- Couchsurfing Through Germany (cheapskatechronicles.wordpress.com)
- Shores of Ohio see future growth (wcpo.com)
- Jessica Ashley: What I’ve Learned About Motherhood By Being a Single Mom (huffingtonpost.com)
- The “What The Hell Is Going On With Lara?” Post (larakulpa.com)
- Negotiating Complexity – The Art of Living & Changing Destinies (rgbwaves.wordpress.com)
- Dealing with change (liveonimpulse.wordpress.com)