Listening to your Heart

I’ve decided not to go on the six-week European trip.  Instead, I’m going to get a job and spend more quality time with my husband.  I’ve been searching for a while now…perhaps going through a mid (or maybe later) life crisis.  Feeling that I have to fit everything in now.  I typically had jobs/careers that offered one or two weeks of vacation per year and while my son was growing up, the time was spent going to Myrtle Beach or boating/camping.  When I finally was able to travel for longer periods of time…I went a little “hog-wild”!

We’ve all heard “Balance is important in life” or “All things in moderation” and I haven’t been living my life in balance lately.  So…having recognized that, I’m now going to change it.  It’s O.K. to travel and have fun, but for me to feel fulfilled, I realize I need a purpose.  I enjoy helping people and I have a lot of interests and talents.  Instead of staying trapped in the thinking that I have to figure everything out now…I’m just going to take action and start somewhere!

Life is Black and White for now

 My life is good.  I have had my share of “bad” things happen in my life, mostly to those I love, which has helped me learn that I have limited control over certain things.  I am a spiritual person…not religious… and agree with the message of the “Serenity Prayer”.  

This has usually helped me to handle the stress in my life in a more positive way.   I have everything I need.  My health.  I have friends and family (although a small one) a husband… one grown child (who still lives at home)…my parents are gone and I’m not close to extended family.  All of the basics (shelter/food/clothing)…I have gratitude for everything and know that I’m blessed.  If you read one of my most recent posts, “50 Things I Love”, you know that I receive pleasure from the simple things in life.  Why then do I feel a discontent…an almost constant pull to travel…need for an adventure…to find my purpose…and loneliness.  I’m free to make choices…am I settling…will I have regrets later?

 Working full-time while my son was growing up, left little time to “find myself”, and even less money to travel to far-away lands to learn about other cultures.  Although I loved being a mother, I remember feeling trapped much of the time.

 If you’re like me, there are a variety of messages that pass your way every day.  Blogs, books and even Pinterest speaks to me!  This was a message on Pinterest yesterday…

The only thing that makes it a part of your life
is that you keep thinking about it!

 

I signed up for messages from “The Universe” and here are some of the most recent—

 

Some think life is not so much a place to seek personal
happiness and fulfillment, Sherry, but rather a place to learn
 lessons and pay dues.  And so it is for them.  
Tallyho, The Universe

 

This one is telling me to have fun…enjoy life!

Get out, get out, get out even more, Sherry! Because there are
people you’ve yet to meet, laughs you’ve yet to share, stories
you’ve yet to live, and riches you’ve yet to tap into, that will not
find you under any other circumstances.
Besides, how else can I shower you with surprises? 
The Universe 

 

This one is telling me to go on that “trip around the world” that you’ve been wanting to take, but haven’t because you’re worried that you shouldn’t spend the money because you need it for retirement!  But then I’ll think, well I could teach English as a second language or house-sit, or couchsurf, or find other ways to make a living while traveling!

You don’t even have to know what you want, Sherry.
I’ll take care of that.  Just enjoy that you received another
day, and the 10,000 miracles within it.  It’s on me, 
The Universe 

 

This one is telling me to stop worrying about which direction to go…just do what makes you happy.  It’s not that complicated…stop over-analyzing and just have gratitude!

Often, Sherry, having what you want is a function of
letting go of what you have.  If you know what I mean.
The Universe 

 

This one is telling me again…to travel!!  I’ve already minimized possessions… 

What do you now fear, Sherry?
How will you use this?
You’re welcome, 
The Universe 

 

This one knows that I’m still analyzing and fearful about how big changes will affect me and those around me!

I bounce from different schools of thought…

the universe is giving me a sign…to

just envision what you want, take action, and you can manifest it…to

just meditate…it really doesn’t matter who or what is in your life…because you can control your thoughts and perceptions (Eckert Tolle)

 So….I’d love to hear from you…how do you handle these thoughts in your life?  I’ll leave you with more Black & White…

  
 

The Citadel in Cairo, Egypt - 2009

 
 

Stone hut on side of road in Peru - 2009

Dead Fish on ice at Pike Place Market in Seattle, Washington

Man weaving on beach on Roatan Island, Honduras - 2007

Sleeping man at outdoor train station in Egypt - 2009

Man at the Pyramids

Little girl in Petra, Jordan